I was at our prayer meeting this morning and something really hit me hard. While some would say that I am a professional Christian and this is something that I should be really good at, I am not. I am really bad at this whole prayer thing. It is not that I don’t believe in the power of prayer or even want to pray, I just find that it is typically my last resort to a situation to say, “I should pray about this.” I don’t know why that is, it just is.
- The reasons I don’t pray more:
- It is easier to just complain about the situation
- It is easier to talk to someone else about it
- It is easier to just deal with the situation on my own
- It is easier to deny the situation
- It is easier to try to rely on myself rather than God
- It is easier to stay in bed than get up early and pray
During this week of prayer and fasting God put on my heart that I need to wear out the carpet at the office in prayer. When I pray I am one of those guys who paces back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. I got a picture of that path of carpet being worn out by the end of this year because I committed myself in prayer for this community.
How do you feel about prayer? Is it something that gets you all excited to go do or is it a chore for you at times as well?
I know that I will probably catch some slack for this post but while I might be a pastor, I am not perfect and don’t have it all figured out. I am still working on my life and my relationship with God and a continually growing.